Firstly, I wanted to thank all readers for your incredible empathy and words of encouragement. At the time of writing my last entry, I was physically and emotionally exhausted. Once again, I am refreshed. I have been working as a locum (relief) veterinarian for the past four months in a clinic near High Park, in Toronto. The owner of the clinic sadly passed away and I was called to work as a replacement until which time the clinic is sold. Working alone and being the sole decision-maker at this practice has been exactly what I have needed. It has made me seriously think about opening my own shop and becoming a practice owner. Perhaps I will be a benevolent boss, similar to those to whom I look up, similar to those who have influenced me during my thirteen-year career.
This renewed energy has been coupled with a hitherto-never-felt connection with my city: Toronto. Why? I bought a bike and started cycling everywhere. I am now physically connected to the city's infrastructure, palpable through the bike's tires, frame, seat, and finally through me. Extricated from the car, I can now look up, see the skyline, feel the wind, touch the roads. Without a car for the first time in about a decade, I was gravely concerned about my loss of freedom. Nay, I have never felt more free.
A career change is still possible but such a decision, if made, will be made with a clear mind, no longer clouded and sullied by frustration, anger, and resentment.
I look forward to continuing on this path that is my life. The journey thus far has been marred with obstacles, but like a re-energized Mario, Donkey Kong can throw as many barrels at me as he wishes. I can jump pretty high now.